This morning I had an “Ah-ha!” moment that I want to share with you.
In my coaching practice I work with my clients to help them hear their own voices, to allow them to trust themselves and step in the power of their professional and personal lives. I tell my clients that what they know, what they feel, what they notice matters. I coach them to listen to them selves and trust their inner guidance to make the best choices for their lives and situation.
This morning I realized that in at least one area of my life, I was not walking my talk! That area is my exercise practice. I was introduced to yoga in 2000 when I moved from France to the USA. As a new Californian I felt compelled to put on my loose pants and flip flops, and head to the nearest yoga class carrying my coffee cup and yoga mat. Yoga was very different from anything I knew before. It was a slow pace workout where I finally found an opportunity to connect with both my body and spirit. I left every class connected to myself and to the bigger picture of my life. I loved it. I came home energized and feeling like I had engaged some part of my body that I was not even aware existed before! The next day I would fell pain in my back, but went back to class anyway. I loved the yoga community, and wanted to be part of it. It seemed like everyday I would meet another person who told me how yoga impacted their lives. I have been practicing yoga for years almost 10 years now.
Today my personal trainer opened my eyes. She asked me, “If you feel pain in your back everyday after your yoga practice, don’t you think that maybe yoga is not right for you?”
What! Not right for me? How can yoga not be right for me? Isn’t yoga right for everyone?
Sadly, my trainer was right. I did have pain after every class, and it had gotten worse over the last 9 years. I had rationalized that the pain was due to three pregnancies – I had even did prenatal yoga. How come I was not listening to what my body was telling me in a very loud voice everyday? I was following the crowd, yearning to be part of something else, and not acknowledging my own inner voice.
My advice to myself and to you: Be aware and remember what you feel! What you notice matters. Pay attention, trust yourself, and find your own way!
Tomorrow, I am off to try Pilates and see if it’s a better fit for me and my body.